2 posts tagged “body dysmophic disorder”

he mentioned in an e-mail that i had a "disregard for those last 10 pounds." not sure about you but when someone says i could lose a few i get a smidge insecure. i joined a gym last night and proceeded to work out for two hours (half yoga, the other on machines). i'm starting to feel some soreness. even though i've been out of the loop for 5 months i'm still in pretty decent shape.

lighter? hmph. in two weeks i'm going to look so good it'd make a grown man cry. fucker.

I know I'm not a cow. I am relatively attractive but I get the feeling sometimes my glasses hinder this. However, I am aware that they tend to filter out the more shallow of the bunch. The kind of guys who like me do so knowing up front I'm nearsighted and am not afraid to hide it.

Since getting contacts again I've noticed a subtle change. While cruising around Union Square, last Friday with Li I found that we were getting a lot of attention. I was accosted while walking back solo. I couldn't really understand where all this street love was coming from seeing as to how I was fully covered (jeans and a cami layered under a t-shirt). Usually to get so many hoots and hollers I have to be wearing something skimpy and on the verge of scandalous.

The final straw came during a train ride to pick up my boyfriend. A reasonably good looking (quirky and somewhat short) guy invited me to visit the bar he works. He left the train a stop early just to give me the address and his contact info. He insisted he wasn't stalking me and I believed him. Even if he did follow me all the way to boyfriend's building I'm more than sure he would've gotten his ass kicked. No worries.

More research must be done. I have to know how much wearing glasses factor into my overall ability to attract the opposite sex. Curious minds want to know.